Missing my family_ a lot:(

   Feels like I have become a perfect KMLA member now. (Not in the sense of a 'perfect member', but just meaning I feel to be old right now) It's june already, and the summer vacation is coming _ together with the final exam:(:(
  It has been quite long to be with my family. I sometimes wonder if they, who are in Busan,
are having a good time. And I hope so. Nowadays, I find myself thinking of them so much. Realizing that I'm missing them a lot, I also recalled the memory of last winter.

  In December, in the meeting between the 17th wavers and 18th wavers in Busan, seniors had told me you won't miss your family that much after entering here. I worried a little bit, but was just delighted to enter the school. Then I entered the school.
  I had a lot of fun. It was actually fun through the winter courses, which SHOULD HAD BEEN( as those seniors said ). I liked my friends, (especially liked the process of making new friends),  teachers were very nice, and I was just amazed that I am learning in this school since it was my dream only an year ago.

  However, I feel myself being weaker mentally right now. (I mean_ psychologically?) And I've figured it out that's because I miss my family so bad. Same as others, I also had some stressful time here. There were plenty of things that I could get stress. And actually I did get stress for some of those. All I needed was to be cheered every time whenever I got depressed. However, I couldn't be because I hid all my stressful feelings to them, not to make them worry. I now wonder if I were foolish to make those decisions or if I did a good job, because instead of making them worry, I got all my stress hidden inside myself. I think this is giving me such a big impact. I feel so terrible when I face with some difficulties. I think those, which I am getting stressed of, would be one of those I could easily stand when I entered here at first.

  Feel complicated. To rush to the point, I can just conclude that I need my family so much right now. Fortunately, all my family comes to see me this weekend, and I can't wait to give big hugs to them! I tried to write a journal or something today but I think I've ruined this one - even this one doesn't look like a journal but just a lot of status put together which should be on facebook - expecting a good essay next one lol

The unforgettable moment changing my life

<The unforgettable moment changing my life>

Have you ever watched a drama or a real-life scene in which a mother forgets her son because of dementia? A lot of people want to be remembered by someone else, especially by somebody whom they like or love. I had such a time when I felt it important to show myself and become an important person to somebody.

When I was twelve, my classmates were absolutely “perfect”. I cannot describe them without that word. We were always the best. Studying, playing sports, hanging out, all the teamwork we had shown made the other classes jealous of us. I really liked my classmates. I trusted on them, and I remembered each one of them. To me, it was a blessing that everybody was so nice and gentle. On the last day of our class, I was so sad. Then the time passed.

One day, after four years, my classmates and I decided to visit Ms. Park, who was our homeroom teacher then. Since she was moving to a new school, we thought it was a sure thing to do as pupils of her. We, the members of the 4th class of 5th grade, made an appointment with our teacher to meet. And on that day, I went to the new school that our teacher moved into. Meeting all the classmates, I said hello to them, very happily. However, I should have remembered that I was not the kind of girl who had a bright, positive characteristic, but so shy and naiive. I did nothing but just had some talks with friends, or grabbed the homework of English academy all day long. That means I was never a kind of person who had once gave such impact to my classmates. So the conclusion was that most of my classmates, except my best friend, didn’t remember me.

At first, I couldn’t believe they had forgotten me. I was so broken-hearted, and even asked myself why I even live a life like this, if I cannot become a part of a precious memory to anyone else. Since I was dreaming to be a world-leading lawyer then, I realized that I would have to show emotions and be more enthusiastic or energetic to know them. Think about it. How can a person without any friends who remember him, become a world-leading person? Can he become even a “helpful” one who contributes to this society? So, I determined to change myself.

By changing the attitudes toward everything, first of all, I became a very active person who does everything and tries something new, and does all the things for the first time whether or not it is something the others avoid or enjoy. From then, I began to lead our class and felt so much more meaningful. This makes me happy right now that I can do something influential for a group of people and those people might remember me.

First presentation(prezi) in Eng.Con. class!